I’m going to address one of my problems,I have a few like any normal human being.This is something that i will dip deep into addressing into the subject, with a lot of openness.This blog is for me, not my family and they might not like it.But, this is about me healing and finding love in my heart,even for those that have hurt me.I have nothing to hide about my pass it has changed me, into the loving soul, i am now without any regrets..
I generally cant say “No” to people.There have been times when I’ve said ,yes, to so many things, that i should of said “No” to. I don’t want to hurt people’s feelings intentionally and never try.I ‘m not one that rolls with the crowd in things.I’m the last person to conform to idea’s, that don’t sit right with me, so when people try to convince me to do somethings.I normally choose my own path or way.Not because i’m difficult ,but because I have my own way i go about things and approach on life.I’ve learned in my few years here on earth.In my opinion, the whole thing comes down to the fact, that I don’t want to hurt people,or even worse, I don’t want to make waves of negativity,raise my voice or become angered.When I do, i lose sight of who i am…But, i still have a problem of saying NO.
Some might think it would be no problem to say ,”no “when we really have to.It shouldn’t be a big deal, but it is.I know what it is like to really need help or feel like life is hopeless and have no one to turn to for help.Though, I try to differenciate between those who really do need help and those that are using me.I don’t want to say no all the time.But,i need to be more honest.
It’s not that i’m dwelling on the pass.I’m no longer angered at the “persons” that have done me harm and wrong.And my bitterness has been gone from my heart for quiet a while now,love has replaced it.But,my struggles are still there in dealing with the issues of how it effected me, in certain parts of my life and where it’s coming from.
NO!!I do not want my pass to have a negative effect on me.!No.No.No.No…
“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may.We ourselves must walk the path of LOVE.”
